what's the fuck up? you are mother fucking piece of  shit, do you know what i am gonna do now？i am gonna kill you, i am gonna bumping your fucking head in your ass ,your dig you are 2PAC ,what a fucking biggy piece of shit, i hope you fucking die,you drop the fucking chair, fucking kid, hope your air crash, fucker

   如果最近能心情好点就好了，人会精神很多，干劲也会足点，前两天甚至睡觉到了中午，感觉没力气。这两天恢复的差不多了，毕竟有些事过去就爽了。这篇也算是重新开博了。

    无聊到极限

      This song goes out to all those special people in my heart. But that one person that matters the most, you know who you are. Doesn´t matter for now, doesn´t matter later. All I gotta do is make that call. Turn around, there you are.
And so to you from the bottom of my heart, I wanna say one thing. Thank you.

      最近写在qzone的东西比较多，因为那里人流量比较大，交流比较多。可是看见自己一手扶植的space荒废我也于心不忍。最近到了期末了，反而更加的放松了，彻彻底底的玩了一个学期，说来惭愧，看到别人都在猛看专业书，我也想，可是却被很多事情羁绊住。最最一事无成的日子就是这四个月，失败中的失败！

      我不忍敞开心扉，但愿今后努力，aza
      

    Season may change, from winter to spring. But I love you until the end of time.

                                                                                                        -------moulin rounge

  寝室有网络的日子越发堕落

   absent from classes of Stochastic Processes, confuding what is real.

  犹抱琵琶半遮面,古之美女所为.我冒昧的使用了这一手法,经常以手机如此自我陶醉,似乎有一点narcissism,希望不要走活在自己圈子里的老路.

  Actually, i feel  much better now.  Gaining or losing is just so common in the way of our lives. Now it's just the critical moment for us to use our attempt and effort to realize so many, maybe quite simple dreams. I want to live on my own ground, that later developing my own future. So sadness ~ get away! 

    So I have a question for all of u who has happened to meet the page, supposing that you are one of the men that were trapped on the jet which is hijacked by the terrorists and you are definitely going to die, then they give you a chance to  just one sentence moment to say farewell, who and what will you plan to say?

    郁闷的季节总算过去拉,感谢所有给予我安慰的各位们了. 对于自己的重新定位已经开始了, 很想摆脱懒散的习惯,例如 实况到午夜,懒觉睡到9点多, 虽然很控制不住自己, 现在还是偶尔犯戒, 但比起之前的一个月, 确实改善不少了. 进步是摆脱阴影的良方, 我是个很受荣誉感激励的人, 或许是疲塌很久了, 一点胜的欲望都没有,或许是这个舞台还没有给我一个空间去发挥. 英文有谚"stop at the laurate", 我也许就是这驻足在以前小小成就的所谓桂冠之下而不思进去的典型吧. 过去的已然过去, 未来有待我去创作, 忙里偷闲, 又到这里骚骚(是这么写的吗,不知道那个节目是不是这样写的).

   TO meet chris:  鬼吹灯真的很棒,另外一部是什么,我忘了名字了...

    Kind of feeling made me sleepless from the first day till now this week. I always try to illustrate the most sweet scene in my brain. However, just like the cloud in the sky that comed out before the sun, You cannot touch the cloud as you know, but you can feel the rain and know that contentness of the flower and the thirsty earth after the hot day. I am truely becoming these creatures who are in pursuit of the gift from the heaven. Unfortunately, it was a mirage and moods keep medown all the time, i learned to pretend that everything is in my handle as others views who always consider that i am in a glamous future. That's the biggest lie, nowadays i am completely lost my self and out of my head. Where is my future still hover at the nadir of my head. Time will tell if all my action would pay the bill.

 

                                                   Tks for giving me the courage to drive on

                                                                        sincerely your friend

      昨晚确认了考试没有过,虽然很久以前就对自己说肯定是完了,不过还是有那么一种幻想,要是能过该多好啊.

      做人的失败就在于看不清自己,不反省自己,活在自己的世界是很少有烦恼的.永远觉得自己很强似的,外面是金子的外壳.内心世界确是糟粕的而且极其虚伪,对于胜利渴求的愿望是那么渺小,以至于不是那么聪明的自己,觉得自己不用花什么力气就能万事大吉,幻想有多么优越.啊哈,怪哉...没有读过什么书,迄今为止头脑还是很简单,幼稚的不由得老妈一直在唠叨,心里却还是觉得很不耐烦.其实她是十分准确的看清了我的本质.对于朋友总是接受比付出更多,做事很没有耐心,可谓失败中的失败,对于很珍惜的考试简直就是在玩票,象一个无知到非常的麻木青年,还有所谓资本骄傲吗,还可以理直气壮吗,我瘪了.

     然而这还不仅仅是个浅薄的我呢,披着伪装的外套,似乎还感觉不错,感情商实际上差到不行,不通人事,不会人言,胆小怕事,以上皆有,而且病得十分严重.自以为一个人活的很潇洒,然而在人言之下显得最为脆弱,.感觉是一个异怪的游离在大众之外的灵魂,做人做到这份上,唉,实在是有水平了.

     书写心情是为了忘记过去,为了忘却而纪念(以为我是刘和珍君吗,错了,我不伟大)而我是一只期待重生的凤凰,希望这炽热的内心煎熬,一种前所未有的反思,够助我离开禁锢我思想长达十多年的旧世界,或许彻底改变以后的我才能真正的没烦恼吧.

         complicated是我的心情,一起成长的朋友们都有了不错的工作,是否选择去读读书也是一种逃避呢,事实上如果没有这个机会,凭个人的能力,我也无法获得什么好的工作岗位,流于大众而无特长,也许就这样会庸俗下去吧.我想现在已经有了这么空闲的一段时间,自己必然要把握住的,与四年前的我相比,经验是增长了不少,也逐渐有了人生观,god damn 很晚了已经,自主的意识也增强了,在今后的日子里,便依着我的路,that i have planned 走下去.

    我觉得学习一门技术是很重要的,不需要那么精通,但至少要了解,这次购买电脑的经历告诉我,仅有的那点对于电脑硬件的知识,真的会令我无法判断何谓好坏,这是今后的目标吧,花点时间学习下修电脑.

   虽然短暂的相识，异国的我们，彼此欣赏。从你身上学到了很多，本想向你献上祝福的话语，分享你的快乐，然而这一切都已经不可能了，只能祝福你一路走好了，中国的朋友永远纪念你～

   完成每一项工作的前提，是合作，无论是和partner还是client。合作的关键是成为很好的朋友，朋友之间的第一要素，就是相互的尊重。能做到这一点，工作自然会轻松很多。在我这些日子的实习中深深体会到这一点，即使是语言不同，彼此有着文化差异的人们，在相互尊重的基础上，感情的建立是迅速的（除非对方很冷漠，我与他们的交往做到了体谅和尊重，必然也赢得了他们的信任和赞赏。尽管最后的结局，有一点那样的出人意料，甚至给我的是打击，令我倍感confused，然而还是和尊重有关。这20天的辛苦和汗水，洒脱或痛苦，没有白费，自信心的增加以及为人处世的经验的汲取，让我受用不尽～

  数日的无聊啊，下午是去放松下的时候了，听着christina的fighter就有了一点冲动啊，再每天坐在电脑前是会憋死的，i just pray that the heaven give  some serendipity down on me,期待明天有事可做

江南七怪＋马玉＋洪七公＋一灯大师＋周伯通（教一个弱智儿童）==郭靖大侠

天下第一王重阳（教七个天资不错的小孩）==全真七子

全真七子×3[郭靖大侠

这就是王重阳盲目扩招的严重后果！！！

    Love is passion, obsession, someone you can't live without. If you don't start with that, what are you going to end up with? Fall head over heels. I say find someone you can love like crazy and who'll love you the same way back. And how do you find him? Forget your head and listen to your heart. I'm not hearing any heart. Run the risk, if you get hurt, you'll come back. Because, the truth is there is no sense living your life without this. To make the journey and not fall deeply in love - well, you haven't lived a life at all. You have to try. Because if you haven't tried, you haven't lived.

  When I get gloomy at the state of the world, I thought about the arrival at the Heathrow Airport. General opinion started to make out that we live in the world og hatred and greed. But i don't see that. Seems to me that love is everywhere,often is not particulalyr dignified or worthy,but it's always ther fathers and sons,mothers and daughters,husbands and wives,boy friend, girl friend, old friend. When the planes hit the twin towers as far as I know none of the phone calls from people on board were not messages of hate and revenge, they were all messages of love. If you look for it, I got a sneaky feeling, love actually is all around.

 

   爱无处不在，真爱无敌